What no one ever told me about being a mom

Madisyn Elise Rajaratnam was born on August 14, 2014 at 7:45 P.M weighing 7lbs 11 oz.

I used to always dream about having my own little baby! I am absolutely LOVING being a stay at home mom. You think that you are prepared to take on the world, you read all the parenting books, have accumulated HOURS of practice from babysitting, and have listened to all the advice that others feel the need to give. But I learned that after ALL that, there are so many things that no one ever told me about being a mom...

1. No one ever told me that I would go through a RIDICULOUS amount of diapers! Yes, I was told that I would go through a lot of diapers. I was not told that my child will now never be able to go to college because her college fund has been spent on diapers ;). I was not told that you can change a diaper and in a matter of SECONDS, she already needs to be changed AGAIN before you have even taken her off the change table! 

2. No one ever told me that long showers during the day would be a thing of the past...Sometimes even SHORT showers don't happen....some days I'm still in my pyjamas in the afternoon. 

3. No one ever told me that every evening before bed would be a battle. Baby is so tired yet does NOT want to sleep. She is changed, she is fed, but she will cry and fight sleep...every night. 

4. No one ever told me that such a little baby could grunt SO LOUD at night to the point of me sleeping with a pillow over my head and complaining to hubby "HOW can you sleep through her grunting and WHY does she have to grunt and make all these noises?" 

5. No one ever told me that a baby can be fast asleep and then the second I'm about to start eating dinner she suddenly wakes up and decided that she is hungry....and she is hungry NOW!!

6. No one ever told me exactly HOW MUCH laundry I would be doing. 

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1. No one ever told me the insurmountable love that I could have for this tiny person. That I would do ANYTHING in the world for her and try protect her from anything that will ever hurt her.

2. No one ever told me that I would check on her numerous times during the night to make sure she is still breathing because I already worry about her. 

3. No one ever told me that her cry would absolutely BREAK my heart. 

4. No one ever told me that some days I would spend hours cuddling her because I just can't bring myself to put her down. 

5. No one ever told me that I could just stare into her little eyes all day. 

6. No one ever told me that I would be one of "those" moms- where every little thing that my baby does is absolutely adorable and MUST be documented by a picture or video. 

7. No one ever told me that I would get so teary-eyed every time I think of my baby getting bigger.

8. No one ever told me just how serious they were when they said "Enjoy your time with them, they grow up too fast!" My baby is only a month old and I can already say...she really is growing up too fast! 

9. No one ever told me that I could fall even MORE in love with my husband after seeing how sweet he is with our daughter 

10. No one ever told me just how much I would love being a mom.

Summer 2014

I can't believe it is already halfway through August! This summer has gone by WAY too fast! (and been way too rainy if you ask me ha ha) My pregnancy app says I have 3 days left until my due date! Say WHAT? 3 days! I have been impatiently waiting for baby to come for the last 3 weeks. It's a cruel cruel thing to tell a big pregnant woman suffering in the heat of summer that her baby is full term at 37 weeks and can come any day now...Baby's nursery is finished, prenatal classes are complete, diapers are bought! I think we are ready ;). I look forward to the day I no longer have to visit every public bathroom (or make special trips to Target when I'm out JUST so I can use their nice clean bathroom! ). I also look forward to the day I can get out of bed easily again without thinking of how useful it would have been to hire a crane to help me up through these last few months ha ha. And I'm sure Jonny looks forward to the day when I stop dropping things on the floor, deciding whether or not it's important enough to bend down and pick up, and more often than not end up leaving it on the floor for him to pick up when he gets home from work! ;) But most importantly, I look forward to the day I get to meet our baby!!!! I have spent months dreaming of what she will be like and look like and I get to find out so soon! I can't wait!!

Well there was no Caribbean vacation for us this year ;) but we did take a mini trip to Muskoka for 2 nights :)! We had big plans to go canoeing, spend some time on the beach, and enjoy the outdoor pool and hot tub. But our one full day there was FREEZING and rainy. It didn't just drizzle, it poured! I didn't even take a sweater with me since I THOUGHT it was supposed to be summer ;) so poor Jonny gave me his sweater like the awesome hubby he is! We decided to be brave and go canoeing anyways...because of the rain there were lots of waves and the canoe was extremely tippy. We were pretty sure we were going to end up in the cold lake...so after 5 mins of canoeing we gave up. We then decided to swim in the pool, surely it would feel warm to us if it was so cold out....nope, pool was not heated and it was freezing! So we spent the whole day cuddled up in bed watching movies together which wasn't quite what we had planned but it was still nice to have a couple of quiet days together. We sat on the dock and watched the sunset and laughed hysterically about the silliest things.

A couple of weeks ago we decided to go to a baseball game and make use of the little bit of freedom we have left before baby comes ;). I asked Jonny if he could book us end seat tickets (due to frequent bathroom breaks ha ha) so he booked us tickets in the top section in row 31.  We did NOT realize just how high up row 31 was! We started walking up to our row...and it kept getting higher and higher and higher! I was GRIPPING that hand rail like my life depended on it...yup 36 weeks pregnant and I was getting out of breath FAST! I got to row 28 and thought "I can't make it up another step!", but we finally made it up to our seats where I quickly sat down, gripped the sides of my seat and said "ummmmm, we are WAY too high up." Poor Jonny apologized profusely about making me walk so far, even though it was my fault we were so high up because I was the one who wanted end seats ...though I had already decided I was NOT taking any bathroom breaks because that would involve walking down...and then back up again! We did find amusement in watching other people walk up to their seats...people were huffing and puffing and sitting down halfway taking breaks. I can't say I enjoyed the first bit of the game but rather gripped my seat and pictured myself walking back down those steps and tripping and falling over the edge of the bleachers to my death. (I'm not even kidding....it looked SO steep from where I was sitting). About halfway through the game we decided to go get some snacks (& take that bathroom break that I couldn't hold off on anymore). While Jonny was waiting for me he went and found one of the employees and said "my wife is 36 weeks pregnant and we are in row 31, I really don't want to make her walk up all those steps again." (my prince :D) so she  moved us down to row 12...where I thoroughly enjoyed the rest of the game! It was definitely an experience and we have now learned to never book tickets so high up ever again! ha ha

Well that has basically been the extent of my summer fun :). I have been on maternity leave for a while now and am getting very restless and bored at home, so I'm hoping that changes soon ;). At least I have had time to get lots of reading done, which if you ask me, is the best way to spend a summer! :)

The Countdown is On....

Well the countdown is on! 11 weeks 1 day until my due date! Every time I see the count down on my pregnancy app I have a mini heart attack! We are not ready for baby yet! The nursery is not finished, we have no diapers for baby yet, and no car seat to even take her home in! Yup I'm gonna have a diaper-less baby that they won't even let me bring home from the hospital if I don't start baby shopping soon!

Well, at least she will have shoes! ha ha. We are supposed to start prenatal classes at the end of this month so we are looking forward to that and hoping we feel a little more prepared after some classes. ( I am VERY thankful that I will have my mom close by to help me out in those first few days though!)


We have been keeping busy....as usual....oh the joys of home ownership. We never imagined that our house would be such a fixer-upper and although stressful at times, I love being able to help Jonny out with the house and he loves to be able to learn new things! But sometimes, I feel like we just have bad luck with house things....Our last project was planting grass seed...We planned to put sod in our backyard last weekend and then found out how much it would cost to sod our entire backyard (OUCH)... so we decided grass seed was a better way to go! We went into Canadian Tire only to find a million different types of grass seed and absolutely no idea which one to buy. So I convinced Jonny to ask the employee for help.

Jonny: What's the difference between these 2 types of seed?
Employee: Ummmmm, they are the same.
(yet such a big price difference??)
Jonny: Is there a certain seed that will grow better on soil that is somewhat clay-like?
Employee: Ummmmm, all the seeds will grow grass.

Ha ha Canadian Tire Employee for the win! :S Then a very nice customer overheard our conversation and helped us pick our grass seed. I think Mr. Random Customer needs to put in an application to Canadian Tire;). Here is our before picture (even before we took a week to level and cultivate the soil).

My maternity leave starts July 1st so I really hope by then I am able to post a picture of a grassy backyard... because I really would like to be able to lay in my backyard....every day...all day ;). So here's to keeping our fingers crossed that we have good luck with grass growing, considering I am treating those grass seeds like they are my baby and keeping them watered 3 times a day without fail! ;) 

I absolutely love this beautiful weather we have been having lately! Last week Jonny and I decided to visit some garage sales in search of some treasure. (I LOVE garage sales)! We must have been to at least 15 garage sales...all within 5 minutes of our house! I love garage sale season! I have been spending lots of time in my garden this summer and am being rewarded with lots of flowers blooming! This makes me very happy considering last summer we had only ONE flower bloom....(and I pulled enough weeds to feed a whole third world nation-if they were edible that is)!

The Countdown is also on for my last month of work! (Only 8 shifts to go...woohoo!!) Bending over is getting just THAT much harder and I spent an 8 hour shift with a patient who repeatedly took her shoes off .....and then wanted them back on only minutes later. As I bent over for the gazillionth time to put her shoes on AGAIN my patience began to wear very thin ;)! I didn't even want to put my own shoes on for days after that because it felt like such a chore after all my shoe tying that shift. ha ha!

Jonny & I are planning a 3 day getaway for sometime this summer before baby comes. A babymoon! Still deciding where to go but I'm looking forward to it all the same!! :) No Cuba trip for me this yr though            :(....maybe next yr? :)

Hello World!

Wow! I have a lot of catching up to do. I will try my best to remember the highlights of the last 6 months! :)

Well first of all, we got a new addition added to the family a few months ago! 

Her name is Izzy and she is my baby. She is 3 years old. (Jonny's relatives were looking for a new home for her and I'm so happy they picked us to keep her!) Her first 2 weeks with us were....interesting....very interesting. We felt like we had a newborn baby! She didn't sleep but always would meow and jump on us and wake us up when we were trying to sleep! Thankfully she has settled down and now lets us sleep through the night ha ha! She is a very hyper cat and has this thing where she always runs right in front of you so you almost trip over her. She cries in the mornings until I pick her up. But she also is officially my guard cat, the other day Jonny was bothering me and I was faking that I was hurt saying "ow, ow, ow!!!" and she came running to me faster than I have ever seen her run to see if I was ok! She does this every time I stub my toe on the bed (which really happens way more times than it should) and any other time I call out "ow!" 

She and I are the best of friends! 

Well, we also get ANOTHER addition added to the family in August! We are expecting our first baby on August 16 and we are ABSOLUTELY thrilled!! 

I am just over 16 weeks pregnant and I THINK (fingers crossed) that I may finally be past the morning sickness! I was lucky in the sense that I didn't get my morning sickness(more like ALL day sickness)  until 8 weeks, but seriously the last 2 months felt like the longest months of my ENTIRE life. I may or may not have googled "pregnancy sucks" numerous times just to read about other people who were also miserably sick....somehow it made me feel better ;) (Don't get me wrong...I know some people can't have kids and I don't take the blessing of pregnancy lightly, I am SO thankful, but when your head and the toilet become the best of friends it's sometimes hard to be positive lol)! I craved fruit all the time but baby clearly did not....I craved vegetables but once again, baby clearly did not....so I spent the last 2 months living on mac & cheese, pop tarts, and basically any type of cake, cookies, or muffins that were loaded with sugar! :S Needless to say, as of 3 days ago, I was brave enough to try a kiwi...and IT STAYED DOWN! Then I tried a plum.... AND IT STAYED DOWN!!!!! yup happiest girl in the world! I can finally eat my fruit again! yummmm!!! So now that I am feeling better I'm really looking forward to these next months of pregnancy!!! Now if only my baby belly would grow a little so I could look pregnant rather than like I ate far too many donuts lately! ;) And in 2 weeks today we get to find out if we will be buying pink or blue! 

Well work is going well for  Jonny  Today Jonny starts his job as team manager! (yes, he got another promotion). I am SOOOOO proud of him and I know he will make a fabulous manager. 

I know I have had more highlights in these last 6 months than I can remember but can we blame it on pregnancy brain? I'm totally drawing a blank here so that's all for now :)